| Could we stomp around your back yard And wreck our clothes in the mud? |
[17 Dec 2003|07:08pm] |
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I had this nice entry typed out. Explaining my deepest thoughts, but my computer has a severe hate for me.
What was I ever... ughh... eww.
My thoughts have been prodigiously tranquil these days.
simplicity at it's best.
He is so extraordinary.
I've never ever even dreamed about a boy this wonderful.
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[14 Dec 2003|03:09pm] |
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I'm so angry right now.
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| Even suburbs would be o.k. With you between my sheets And the breeze in the window |
[11 Dec 2003|05:27pm] |
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The thoughts I catch myself with make me wander if it is acceptable; if I am doing everything accurately. The clouds outside remind me of the notes I hear around this time. Like a cold melody.
What Will I be doing in another year? The same thing I am doing now? My veins keep pounding and I'm not concentrating. I wander what next week will bring. I have these dreams, where I see him. So subtle and sweet, like always. Never a negative tone. This is the happiest december I have seen in years, and I thank everyone who has contributed to it. People in this town are not appreciated enough. The ones who are worthy don't get noticed. It shouldn't, be expected of one to be so kind.
My head hurts so bad my heart beats so fast. This is part of being human, Right? This is the price we pay for being at the top of the food chain. I refuse to live by that.
Oh god.
I have caught myself rambling once again.
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[10 Dec 2003|06:07pm] |
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What a day. It was okay i suppose.
It's RAINING. hah.
I love the rain, except how it makes the streets all slippery, thats no fun.
I really don't feel all that well today, plus I miss kirk. I guess thats the main thing.
My mind kept drifting off about other things during school, i don't know why. I just can't concentrate.
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| but honey, I'm not who you think I am |
[09 Dec 2003|05:34pm] |
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( Our machine lips )
Hmm Today was a good day I suppose. Nothing horrible happened, and nothing wonderful happened. Just another day.
I don't know where my mother is though.
She isnt answering her Cell phone ugh.
<3
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[09 Dec 2003|03:08pm] |
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Eww Homework.
I wish I could wake up tomorrow morning to find all of my homework completed correctly.
Today has been a really good day.
All these good thoughts and feelings compiled into one lucky Human. I have never felt more safe in my life considering the circumstances. All these people, I can not thank enough.
Oh and Angie... she is such a sweetheart. I'm thankful for people like her. The kind of people who are there for you when needed most and the weird thing is, I barely know her.
Such a beautiful life I have.
Las Vegas gives me hope on days like these. As much as I claimed to hate this God forsaken town, I couldn't imagine being anywhere else.
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| I must confess, I'm glad to see it go |
[08 Dec 2003|05:30pm] |
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Haha I love how Christopher hates me now. Oh and I also love how immature people I don't know 'IM' me and blame/accuse me of things Seriously people. GROW UP. Tell your mother fucking fanclub to leave me the fuck alone chris. I dont have the time nor patience for that crap.
Mk?
thanx
I'm feeling more relaxed and good about things today.
Rosezena is really comforting.
My house is freezing and I swear my finger tips are about to freeze off. :D
I wish Kirk were here!
Note: We have been together for a month.
HAHA my mother just asked me what Pimp juice is.
Shes so cute
<3
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[07 Dec 2003|08:33pm] |
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I have so many people willing to help me.
I know who my true friends are.
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[07 Dec 2003|10:49am] |
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Intersting, fun weekend so you could say.
Friday I spent the night at Kirks place. Wow my mom let me! He is one of the most amazing people I know. I don't think I could find someone who could possibly make me any happier (well besides jenn but shes a girl! :D) I don't know what he does or how he does it but he makes me feel so good about everything.
Went home saturday got my car registered, went to work with my mommy than came home, took a shower and went out to the lake with jenn and kirk.
Oh how I love them!
Oh and i met Amanda aswell... shes a sweetheart.
This is all new to me, Weird scares going around this weekend but I will get everything straightend out. I swear I'll be fine.
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| I'll live without you |
[03 Dec 2003|03:30pm] |
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I love how people re-act to things these days. I used to be so soft hearted like them and now my skin is a little thicker from previous events in my life. Those things may have been hard and hurtful, but I would't change them for the world because than I would still be walking around oblivious. Things that I would usually dwell on mean nothing to me. Although I still have a heart and I know how to love more than ever. I'm probably not making any sence to you, which is okay because most of you probably arent even reading this.
<3
You know what else I love...
How kirk is so amazing and sweet.
How he makes me smile
and how you dont have a chance with him =D
Lately my days have just been kind of running all together in a big mess.
The only things that stand-out is seeing Kirk and/or Jenn. It's all I have to look forward to and you know what? I'm perfectly happy and content with it being that way.
I love my life seriously.
It rocks.
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[29 Nov 2003|07:42pm] |
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transmission interrupt this is a language i can't understand the new synthetic is machine and man now is time for an old world end the broadcast is corrupt this machine is far too human yet the signal still remains promise me we'll never breathe as part of this machine this machine is far too human yet the circuit still remains.
I'm in love.
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[28 Nov 2003|09:06pm] |
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It's strange seeing people grown and matured.
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| Use me, come on and use me |
[28 Nov 2003|07:51pm] |
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Our breathing has got to loud
Show me the bedroom floor
Show me the bathroom mirror
We are talking this way to slow
take me away from here
Tuesday:
1.My sister and nephew arrive
2.Saw reggie and the full effect with Kirk <3
3. Kidnapped Kirk
4. DAMMIT JR.
Wendsday:
1. Woke up next to Kirk
2. Went to the fashion show mall
3. Went to dinner
Thursday:
1. Woke up next to kirk <3
2. Cleaned up my house
3. Went out to dinner with family
4. Parents came home
5. Hung out with Jenn
Friday:
1. Woke up next to kirk <3
2. Said bye to my sister ( HAHA)
3. Watched Tv with Kirk
4. Kirk left :(
That was the past four days in a nut shell
By the way Kirk and I are fate.
I just found out His dad was my moms biology professer for two years
Plus when I was real little my mom and I were in Canada and ran into him and his family and while they were talking I played with Kirk on the swings. thats what my mommy said. So now she adores Kirk
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[25 Nov 2003|03:54pm] |
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Its cute how kirk and I can share clothes.
And when he struts around with my scarf and handbag
yeah thats adorable.
I get to see him tonight
I miss him <3
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| december killed the best of me |
[24 Nov 2003|10:59pm] |
I deleted all my entries up till october starting from feburary. I have a new life now. I guess you could say. I would rather not dwell on old things. Old dreams that never came through, things I thought I needed but clearly couldnt handle. And to blind to understand, that it wasent what I wanted. I was just being selfish and lonely.
I have what i want now.
I have everything I could possibly ask for. Friends, a lover, and happienss.
If I offended any of you, I am sorry. It's not that I want to forget all the good memories I have shared with any of you, I'm just starting off fresh. And trying to forget bad memories, and pretend like they never happened. Besides I dont want to upset others and cause them drama
Understandable right?
But now I must be off to dreamland
Its weird and uncomfortable not sleeping with kirk and waking up alone.
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[22 Nov 2003|10:52pm] |
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Yesterday Danielle and I went over to kirks house and spent the night. Kirk and I are cute. Kirks friends are seriously awesome just like him. Kirk and milkshakes are the best things ever. No doubt about it.
It's so cold outside. I love sweater weather, even if I am freezing.
I seriously can not wait for my sisters arrival. I haven't seen her in so long.
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WHoaaa its almost friday.
I miss kirk :(
( rise and shine )
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[16 Nov 2003|05:06pm] |
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Kirk is wonderful.
We have fun together
and sleeping alone tonight wont be the same.
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[12 Nov 2003|07:57pm] |
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Kirk makes me happy.
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[11 Nov 2003|03:09pm] |
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[11 Nov 2003|02:35pm] |
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This four day weekend was actioned packed
Friday-
Football game.
Kirk and I hung out and he asked me out.
Saturday-
ughh band competition from 11 am to 11 pm.
Sunday-
Saw planes mistaken for stars with Jenn and Kirk <3.
Ate at dennys, which was gross.
Monday-
Hung out with Danielle.
Than Danielle and I went to Jenns house Kirk was there <3.
We went out to dinner and went to the park.
Than we went to Kirks house.
Kirk and I were being really really really really cute.
Today-
Gt home at 3 am from Kirks house.
Hung out with danielle.
Got an alarm system put in my car.
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[08 Nov 2003|06:37am] |
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I snuck out of my house and hung out with my two favorite people for about 5 and a half hours.
Jenn <3 and Kirk <3
Oh and guess what...
Kirk is my boyfriend now.
We are so cute.
I am so happy.
And you all our jealous of me
:D
(oh and that boy totally wanted jenn)
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| Whatever means you dont care |
[07 Nov 2003|03:44pm] |
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So it's a four day weekend.
The fun doesnt begain till sunday.
I love how I piss people off.
Actually I dont love it .
Oh well
HAHA.
(Rats! you aren't talking to me.)
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[06 Nov 2003|02:12pm] |
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Kirk and I are going to sadies because we are awesome and cute.
You are jealous of me :D
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[05 Nov 2003|10:06pm] |
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So things are coming together nicely for me.
I know who my real friends are,
I have been getting along with my mother really good after we had that last fight.
Plus I found this totally cool guy who makes me happy.
He is seriously sweet and puts me in a good mood.
Yeah I like him. a lot. His name is kirk.
I plan on spending some time with him this weekend.
oh and the weather is beautiful.
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[02 Nov 2003|02:46pm] |
Wheww so I am back from Arizona, which is a relief. I had fun, but I missed home, and kirk.
We went to the cowboy carnival thing hah kalli and I danced like a cowboy.
We went trick or treating in the quality inn
baha.
I realized some things while i was there
1: Vegas isnt really that bad of a place.
2: Arizona is really boring and im glad i dont live there.
3: I love my friends.
4: I hate bug bites.
yeah.
My hands are really cold.
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| like the great october revolution all over again |
[29 Oct 2003|02:17pm] |
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You know, I'm not as big of a bitch as people make me out to be.
if you know me and treat me well, I am a nice person.
You always told me to stand up for myself.
Now I realize I should have done that along time ago, but instead of standing up to them, I would have stood up to you.
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[29 Oct 2003|01:39pm] |
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Last night was seriously cute. and fun
SERIOUSLY.
Pshhh all those people walking around the forum shops holding hands thought they were CUTE pshhh not nearly as cute as us
So there
I win!
Oh and the puppet show production was great.
Bahah there was a Clam puppet how great is that.
Ps: I love jenn. I love her to death...and her suprises!
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Sigh.
I hate spending evenings in the hospital.
I cried more than ever.
I tried calling people no one answered...except kirk.
he made me feel 43950435834 times better.
I miss my dad.
I want him home. now.
it hurt the most when he laughed and held my hand.
I just need a hug, i need to be held.
oh and jayson doesnt want to talk to me ever again.
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[25 Oct 2003|01:30pm] |
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Last night was amazing.
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[24 Oct 2003|11:59pm] |
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So I Just woke up from a "nap".
I am now waiting for jenn and kirky poo to get here.
And hoping my dad is alright.
I have a lot of things on my mind. But why go into full detail now. I don't want to bore people with uelsess information. Than again, they don't have to read it if they dont want to.
My house is cold and empty. My hands are clamy lifeless.
So I really don't know what has come over me. I guess I have been treating people shitty for the past month. Nothing can really explain it. So I have no excuses.
Although it has pushed away almost everyone now. So I must be doing something wrong.
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It's like sitting in a cube with only walls for comfort and a box of tissues. While wondering it didnt matter yet all the words made impressions. Wondering what made these paths cross. Taking risks and failing on old terms and its been along time. stories evolve and its not a look or a style or the gracefullness in a walk. Nor a whisper or the season. Things have changed, things havent changed. Oh the contradictions. I was alone. You were alone. And I was scared of the night long thoughts. The ones that were never true. Thats when It is left alone. But still watched through a microscope. This wont make sence to any of you. Thats why it is left alone.
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[19 Oct 2003|05:36pm] |
I went to the college fair.
I want to go to Vassar.(NY)
Intrested in...University of Pennsylvania
I was also looking into northwestern (IL)
and Santa Clara University (CA)
ohhh and University of San Diego
for some odd reason my mom thinks I can get into Harvard and made me put my name on a list HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA YEAH RIGHT. in our dreams.
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| We are so pretty when we are faking. |
[19 Oct 2003|03:03pm] |
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So today was different.... I wasen't as iritable as I have been lately. I treat the people at school totally different than my friends. Kids at school just don't understand me. I try to let them , but I kick myself because most of them aren't worth my time (Danielle is the only exception)
Things are slowly coming together, but appear to be getting worse in other peoples point of view. I just need my head straight. I have done a few things that have made me feel better and have been a big relief. I just need to learn some more things about myself and others and maybe it will help me get a clearer image of what I want.
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[18 Oct 2003|08:20pm] |
I cant stand bitchez.
especially ones who Live in california AND THINK THEY ARE HOT SHIT.
YEAH THEY THINK THEY ARE BETTER THAN THISS RIGHT HURRR...
yeah so leave me alone. you suck.
(note: im not talking about rebecca... because she is hot shit and i like to touch her FACIAL CHEEKS..)
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Today started out good and ended bad. I don't feel well. I blew up at everyone in my house today.
I seriously can not go to school tomorrow. I can't handle it right now.
If someone wants to hang out with me tomorrow till like 2 call me.
8077928
Love,
Sammie
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[16 Oct 2003|07:47pm] |
You look so pretty with my skin touching yours
You've only got eyes for me now. You've only got time for me now.
You've only got eyes for me now and you know how blind I am without you
The angels hair is cutting lines across her cheeks
With all my strength I make her love me
She tastes like summer and smells like romance
She breathes no throat song chorus but I move her lips to form the words "I love you"
I taste her lips and I know she loves me
fbtmof is the best end of story.
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[13 Oct 2003|09:47pm] |
Sigh.
I miss jenn and all the other cool people I never get to see anymore.
You know the ones... who don't hate me over stupid shit.
sighhhh.
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[12 Oct 2003|06:22pm] |
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Soooo.
Last night Rhonda and I totally went to the haunted house. Sporting the shades in the dark.
These little black kids would NOT get off of me.
Rhonda and her toughness had to fight them off baha, because we are white.
I MISS VICTOR
And that girl yelled at us and told her to get out of her room.
Thannn muffy and I were hanging out and seriously being cute.
The end.
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[10 Oct 2003|11:56pm] |
Hello to my kirkypoo!
Whom is seriously awesome.
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[10 Oct 2003|03:14pm] |
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Girls got a face like murder
Ashley and I were being cute today.
(Note: Rhonda and I are on the look out for boys)
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